I wanna be a cowboy...I think

The big news around here is that I'm heading to Texas. I've accepted a job, and am excited to be heading out to Austin soon to lead a Green Energy project. This has everything I want in an adventure, namely;

1. An excellent position within a growing company
2. The latitude to make decisions and help grow a company
3. Working with my mentor
4. A strange new world, filled with cowboy hats and boots
5. Bulls....lots and lots of bulls

I would like to say this is going to be boring, but the combo of those 5 things, and a fully loaded IPOD ought to make this a great experience. Did I also mention I'm moving to the South in two weeks?

Finding yourself....at a funeral

At 10:47 am today I found myself carrying a dead body into a church in Northern LA. Seeing as I'm not a mobster or a mortician, one wonders why exactly I would be in that position (aside from the attention grabbing headline). Truth is, I was attending the funeral of a friend's father, was nabbed by a priest because I'm " a strong young man" (at least I think that's what he mumbled), and was carrying a casket up into the church. Being 2 feet away from the body, then listening to the subsequent eulogy got me thinking about life though, and the opportunities and adventures it affords.

(This is where 10% of the audience thinks, "Geez, Ryan, quit analyzing it. You're only 27, and a lousy philosopher at that." The other 90% quit reading when I mentioned I was carrying a dead body into church. If you've made it this far, kudos.)

In the movie "Dead Poets Society", one of the opening scenes is Robin Williams showing his class pictures of previous graduating classes from 50 years previous, and urging his students to "Carpe Diem", or sieze the day as they are few. A true statement, given the fact that life goes by in a blink, and you may find yourself suddenly approaching an age milestone wondering what the hell should you do with your life. It really is that simple, Williams-esque statement, as if you squeeze as much as you can out of every day, you'll probably lose some sleep, and little else as you end up where you're supposed to be.

Ironic that it took a funeral to remind me of that life fact.

Out on a limb (as usual)

We've been discussing over the past few weeks, both at church and elsewhere, how important the skill of listening is. Whether its a girlfriend/boyfriend, teammate, mentor, or God, the emphasis is on what they're saying and doing...not on our own interpretation. With that in mind, this past week I turned down a job as a Sales Mgr in Northern LA. In this economy, most people would think I was crazy, but the truth is it wasn't what I'm supposed to do. When I first moved out to CA, I took a position that was absolutely the wrong choice ( I chose money over cultural fit...story for another time) and kept trying to make it work, but it ended very VERY poorly. I found myself in the same situation Monday, sitting there about to take a job for money...yet this little voice went "Don't. " I thought my unease was just nerves and tried to squash it, but that little voice kept coming back each time with the same message. With this in mind, I told the rather shocked rep on Tuesday I wouldn't be accepting the position, and would be returning to the job market to continue my now 8 month search. It's not that it wasn't a good position, or the people were nasty, it just wasn't what I'm supposed to do for the next few years. No one said this listening thing was easy, but I'm assuming it's like anything else where the more you practice, the better you are.

Unless of course it's backstroke. Never got the hang of that (as 4 swim coaches can testify)

And we're back...

Been a bit since I've wrote on this thing. I highly doubt anyone reads this other then me, but its almost therapeutic in a way just to write in a free flowing manner for 5 minutes and see what comes out.

Its the last day of 2008 today. A lot of people's statuses i (status-i? statuses's?)in my personal network on Facebook, Twitter and Myspace have been referencing the fact that the year is over with joy, commenting on what a "terrible", "miserable" experience it was. This puzzles me for several reasons. I don't feel the 500 some odd people I'm connected with online are overly negative, yet to read these lines makes a person feel the Apocalypse is almost upon us. When I referenced a friend about this phenomenon the other day, his response was that we're getting "older, and that's the way things are". 2008 had its ups and downs, the same as any other year,but I find the ideas that there's no good to be found in time passing, and that getting older means becoming more negative and cynical, is ridiculous. We're here a short time on this earth, and our time here is what we make of it. Focusing on good things, and the wonderful people you meet in life, has the excellent side effect of changing your world view. So thanks 2008 for the memories, both good and bad, and welcome 2009!

My third "marriage"

Several of my friends are recently engaged, which has prompted other friends to ask me such statements as;

"Uh-oh, when are you gonna tie the knot?"
" You're next, dude"
" Soooo.....when are you.....you know..."

These questions have been popping up a lot more lately, as I head towards my late 20s. This leads me to the scenario of why humans feel that if someone else is doing something, they should be doing it too. People start to panic, thinking "Crap, if everyone else is getting married, I'd better find someone and settle down" and end up making...."interesting" choices. I'm not passing judgement on anyone, nor do I think I'm any better or worse then the general populace. Its just an observation over the past two years, watching the dynamics of people in the post-college era. Don't get me wrong, I don't think marriage is a bad thing, nor do I have some master plan to stay single forever, but I'll do it on my own timetable. I'm currently "married" to school and training, and am trying to "make something" of myself. I have no real plans to change that or add a "third marriage" to my life just yet.

Unless Kate Beckinsale shows up at my door. Then all bets are off.

The first long day

Day 33 of IM training found 4 of us stumbling out of bed and heading out to PCH, where we would be riding up towards Seal Beach, as the schedule called for a 4 hour ride, followed by a 1/2 hr run. Most of it would be done in the aero position as well (think bending your body forward like a boomerang and hanging on for dear life....you get the idea). I'd love to say there was some magical adventure, or exciting events during the workout, but really, it was a gorgeous 2 hour ride up and back, riding along the Pacific Ocean, and the run wasn't terrible either.

At this point, anyone reading this is going "Ok, this story sucks...get to the point".

The point to this is when you train for triathlon, you have a half hour "window" after the culmination of workout to eat and replenish some of the calories you've burned off, otherwise your body crashes somewhat and takes up to 48 hours to replenish the intial stores. The longer the workout, the more pronounced the "crashing" effect when you don't eat. It's like being drunk, or tired beyond comprehension to the point where you babble nonsense and drop things for no reason.

Guess who forgot to eat within that window? ::raises hand::

And because I forgot to do such a basic thing, we're going to keep playing the guessing game.

Guess who had a work phone call that day, and told his boss the current project was ".....BS...a trained monkey could do it but wanted more money..."? ::raises hand::

Guess who fell asleep at 4 pm and missed 3 school functions (and pissed off his advisor)? ::raises hand::

Guess who told his mother on the phone "There are two things big about me, my expected salary and my penis size." ::raises hand::

Guess who put his bookbag in the refrigerator? ::raises hand::

Guess who washed an extension cord along with his comforter? ::raises hand::


They really should warn you about this stuff in the Triathlon training manual, rather then just simply stating " Failure to eat in a timely manner may prompt the body to shut down and require 48 hours to return to normal". I'm pretty sure my mom still wants to kill me for that comment.

Business School vs. Ironman

We had to do an exercise in class involving time management, and were told to make a pie chart of an average day, and how much time we spent on the various things in our lives. Mine was as follows

Sleep - 33%
Eating - 12%
Training - 15%
Class Time -10 %
Free Time - 10%
HW - 5%
Work (paid)- 15%

We handed in the charts, went on break while the teacher reviewed, and came back in. I knew something was wrong when the teacher zeroed in on me in the first 30 seconds back and said in a sharp tone,"Mr. Stoughton, I see here that you spend more time training for sports then school. Care to explain?". At this point I have two options;

1. Lie and say I miscalculated, thereby making myself look incompetent and incapable of basic math, but showing that I take my Merage education seriously.
2. Tell the truth, incur the wrath of said teacher for not taking the school curriculum seriously, and spend the rest of the quarter trying to salvage my grade in the class

I weighed these options in 0.2 seconds, looked the teacher directly in the eye and responded with;

" You're just that effective in your teaching, sir."

Between the class laughing and the teacher glaring at me, I'd be willing to bet I'm not getting straight A's this quarter...